Last sunday, Pastor Rod and Mary (the Ragin' Cajuns) were visiting from Baton Rouge. There was another couple with them, pastors of some sort, that lost everything in Hurricane Katrina. After service, the man came up to me and said, "I was watching you earlier, and the Lord spoke to me about you. He said that you went through a very hard time when you were sixteen. You were lost and afraid. But God wanted me to tell you that he was with you the whole time. He never left you." He said some other stuff, but I can't remember all of it. I just started crying because I did go through a very hard time when I was sixteen--I mean, what sixteen year old doesnt--but that's when I became very very depressed. People don't understand that depression is so much more than being sad. It's anxiety, fear, uncontrollable anger. I withdrew from my friends, I quit cheerleading, I quit tennis. I didn't know what I believed about anything--God, life, friends, relationships--especially God. And all sunday morning I was thinking about how I wanted to get off of my anti-depressants, and how I had been putting it off because I was scared of being without them--the withdrawl effects are awful, and what if I reverted back after I stopped taking the medication? I had been thinking this stuff all morning, and then that man came up and told me that. It really just reaffirmed that I don't have to be afraid, and I am going to come off these pills without any side effects or withdrawl, and I will continue to be joyous, not because of a selective serotonin/nonepinephrine reuptake inhibitor, but because God has given me peace, and the joy of the Lord will be my strength!
October 17, 2005 08:36 AM PDT
hey! that's really incredible what he said to you, I'm sure that was amazing to hear!
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